Showing posts with label friend. Show all posts
Showing posts with label friend. Show all posts

Friday, November 16, 2012


Today was a day of attack and victory. 

This morning even waking up seemed to be difficult. My body was physically worn down. My eyes felt like little weights sat upon my eye lids. My joints ached and made the sounds of an old wood floor, creaking and cracking with each small movement. My energy was on its last bit of battery. In general it was a difficult day to begin with. 

Abbie seemed to be under a bit of attack as well. She was extremely emotional and was crying throughout the day. She had an indecisiveness about everything and filled the air with grumbles and complaints. In general she was just unpleased with life. 

Elizabeth must have stolen the energy that I was missing because she, like the Energizer Bunny, kept going and going and going and going and going. She was getting into everything. A trail of mess followed her everywhere along with screeching sounds of annoyance. She must have called me hundreds of times when I was sitting right there with her in her room playing. "Mom... Mom... MOM... momma... Mom."In general she was needy and energetic. 

This was not a normal day in our household and the tension sat in the air like a thick fog. All communication lines seemed down and I felt claustrophobic in our home. 

When we are under spiritual attack my Achilles tendon would be my family. When they are under attack I do not do as well. I knew that today was a spiritual attack and I also knew that it was connected with last night and what was going to happen tonight. 

Last night was an amazing night. I spoke to a dear friend of mine about God. The Holy Spirit was speaking to her heart and I was so blessed to be witnessing it. She like, so many others-- myself and my husband included, didn't understand the difference between knowing about God and knowing God. Knowing about a savior and being saved. I could feel the Holy Spirit pulling on my heart to ask her questions that I, to be quite honest, was a little scared to ask because I didn't want to hurt our friendship. I remember the times that I thought I was a Christian and I am not sure how I would have handled it if someone had tried to point out that I wasn't. I asked them and I was amazed at how God worked. Once I was willing to open up my mouth and just be obedient to God, He took over. I don't know why I had any fear, the fact is that the Holy Spirit already knew the status of her heart and He is always in control. Last night we talked about the prayer of salvation and I answered any questions she had. The most difficult part was that last night the Holy Spirit was not leading me to lead her in the prayer. I wanted so bad to "close the deal" as some would say. She was right there and ready, but it is not in my timing. 

So today was filled with attacks. One thing that helped was remembering that often the devil doesn't attack noneffective Christians. I knew that I was in a war and I already know who has won. 

So tonight my dear hubby said that I can decorate for the Holidays early to help me feel better after the long bad day. I messaged my friend and invited her over because it seems like something she would like to do. When she responded back I was brought to tears. God is so good! She said that she would like  come over and then she said that she wanted to be saved. I called Alvin and he prayed with me for her. She has been on my heart for months. 

She came over and we had a wonderful time hanging out. We talked and ate food. Then tonight one of my closest loving friends became my sister. I am so thankful to God for her and for His love for her. I am so excited to see God move in her life. Victory!!! God claimed another victory!!! It makes all that junk that happened today melt into nothingness. 

Romans 10:9 If you declarEe with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 

Ephesians 6:10-12 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 

Romans 1:16 For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it has the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile. 

Monday, November 5, 2012

God is in Control... Even on Election Day

Tomorrow is election day and this comes with great stress and great relief. I don't know who will be placed in authority over what. I don't know who our next president will be, I don't know what laws will be passed, and I don't know which local people will be representing who. The things I do know is that tomorrow there will be a lot of conflict. There will be a lot of fighting and quarreling. Tomorrow will be a day of great stress and concern for many. Tomorrow night will also be a time of great divide in our country when one person will be elected and another will not. One thing I do know for certain is that God knows. Tomorrow nights results will come as no shock to God. 

I do have a set of political beliefs but I do not openly discuss them, not out of fear of what some may say, but because I believe that my focus should be on unity with my brothers and sisters. I know strong Christians on both sides of the spectrum. I believe that this is their personal choice and their right. I don't think that I could show love, agape love, if I judged or bashed someone based on their political beliefs. The church is already very divided over denominations. I don't see any reason that it should also be divided over politics. 

Now let me say, I am very vocal in the fact that if a person does not vote and does not educate themselves on the issues, then I do not believe that person has a right to complain when things don't go as they wish. 

I also find it extremely sad that they way political campaigns are run is more focused on slander than on stating what they stand for. I understand that they are just "playing the game" but it really turns me off to politics. I also hate the constant phone calls from different political parties. 

That all being said, I am proud to live in a country in which I do have a right to vote. I have a right to state my beliefs. I have the right to write a blog about what God has done for me. I just wanted to encourage you all that no matter how tomorrows elections turn out, God is in control. I pray that as Christians we can find unity so that we might not be divided and silenced. I also want to encourage you my brother and sisters to pray and seek out what God would want you to do. There is a way to express our unhappiness without slandering the authorities and with showing them respect. 

Romans 13:1 Let everyone be subject to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God.

John 15:19 If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.

Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.

On a final note my friends, I know that a time like this causes anger and frustration between people.. especially those with strong opinions. Please, remember that as Christians we are to not only love our friends but our enemy as well. I understand that right now some might be saying things that are directly against your core beliefs.. which feels like it is directly against you, but still seek God and His wisdom on how to still show them love. How to have peace with them.

Matthew 5:43-48 "“You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect."

Often it looks like we are fighting against another person or that another person is fighting against us, but they might really be fighting against God. 

Romans 6:12 "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."

David said, "Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight; so you are right in your verdict and justified when you judge." - Psalm 51:4 

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Daily Blog Challenge: Day 30

So we have come down to the final day of the blog challenge and although I have begun the next challenge, I am still slightly sad that this is over. I can't believe that I actually did it though. I followed through and accomplished something. So for the final post on this blog challenge the question is pretty deep. 

List 5 things you would hope to be remembered for.

1. Being a godly woman. I just think it would be the most awesome thing to be remembered for. My daughters are the ones I really want to think of me in this way. 

2. Being completely real and honest with others. I don't want to be known for having secrets. I don't want all those skeletons to come falling out of my closet as they close the casket. I don't want people to see me as another quote on quote Christian. I want them to see me as someone who has fallen many times but has the grace of God covering all her flaws. 

3. As being a good friend. A real true friend who loves you just as you are, but also pushes you to be your best. Who understands what you need to make you smile and when you need to cry. I want to be a friend who is willing to sacrifice herself for others. 

4. I want to be remembered for being weak. I am in no way strong. I do not want to be remembered for being strong. I am not able to do it all on my own. Thankfully I have a God who is strong and is able to do it all. I want to be remembered as weak because I want my strength comes from the Lord. 

5. How much I would love for people to remember me as a person filled with peace and joy. One of those persons who you just feel at peace when you are around. A person that you can feel Gods abounding love flowing from their eyes. I wish I had more self-control and would not allow any ungodly words pass from my lips. To be remembered for only ever speaking the truth would be a powerful thing. 

Thank you so much for following me through this little journey into my mind. How blessed I am. 

What would you want to be remembered for? 

Monday, June 18, 2012

Daily Blog Challenge: Day 17 & Day 18

What is the thing you most wish you were great at?

I wish I was great at emotionally separating myself from situations when it comes to disciplining my children. I see my mom handle it with such grace, peace, love, and dignity. She is able to correct and discuss without becoming emotionally involved. She would spank us and not be angry at our actions. Maybe she was just better at hiding her frustrations, maybe we just pushed her to her breaking point, or maybe she just has this way of handling things. 

Sometimes I get angry, frustrated, tired, annoyed, and disappointed. I try to hide my feelings and handle things with grace but I know that sometime I can be transparent. 

Do you get angry or feel like you would lose your cool with your child? 

What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?

Wow, this one cuts deep doesn't it... If I told the most difficult thing I have ever had to forgive, it would end up hurting the person and if I purposely did that I wouldn't have really forgiven them, would I have? 

What I will say is that I was hurt by multiple people in one situation. It had rocked me to my core. What I can tell you is how I forgave. 

I had come to the end of myself. I was absolutely powerless over the situation. I had no strength in myself to fight or to flee. So, I turned it over to God. I prayed and I decided that until I knew what to do I would do as I knew Jesus would. What would Jesus do? 

If they were repentant He would forgive them. (a)
He would pray for them. (b)
He would love them in spite of their sin. (c)
He would have boundaries set.  (d)
He would turn all else to God. (e)
(matching scriptures at bottom)

So I made the conscience effort to do that. It was honestly one of the hardest things I have done on my Christian walk. I forgave them. I prayed for them. I loved them as fallen people. I made boundaries. I tried to show them love, while keeping my boundaries. I gave God control over my feelings of anger, depression, and grief. I faked it until I made it. My relationship with each person that hurt me has been healing. God has done some amazing things. He has brought freedom and victory. 

(a) Mark 11:25 "And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”

(b) Matthew 5:44-45 " But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.

(c) Ephesians 5:25 "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her"

(d) Mark 1:35 "Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed."

(e)Luke 22:42  “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.”

How are you at forgiving? Is there someone out there that you need to have more grace for? 

What a great way to show our thanks to God for the grace He gave us, by giving grace to others.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Friday Letters

One of my Blogging friends mentioned this in her blog.I thought it sounded interesting. Basically you write little letters to people, places, or things that are brought to your mind that day. 

So here it goes.... 

Dear Husband, Thank you for being so flexible with me when I am always changing the plans and my mind. I know it frustrates you but I appreciate your patience. 

Dear SRC (School Refund Check), Please come in the mail today. I have already planned the many ways that you are being spent. Thank you in advanced for providing a date night with the hubby. 

Dear Eb, I am so proud of all the new things you are beginning to do. However, just because you can walk all around doesn’t mean you have free reign of the house. You can’t just leave rooms and wander the house. 

Dear Abbie, I love you!!! I do Not love your sister more than you. I know that it can be tough having a baby sister. I am so proud of how you are handling things and you are the most amazing big sister. 

Dear A/C Unit, you suck. That is all. 

Dear Friend, I am so proud of you for being brave and sharing your journey back to God. I am so glad you are back in my life. Several months ago I didn’t think I could love you any more, but I was wrong. I feel that bond that soldiers have with the other soldiers in their company. We went through a war and were on the team that claimed victory and freedom. 

Dear God, Thank you so much for you grace and love. Thank you for the blood of Christ that covers my shameful sins. You are good. Dear Blog readers, Thank you for taking your time to read my blog. 


Sunday, June 10, 2012

Scared to let go

I was just at a dear friends house for BBQ. I noticed that my friend was trying to let Eb walk on her own but was scared that she might fall. Just a week ago I was feeling that way. I loved this picture. Even though it is so simple, it says so so much. You can see the anxiousness in my friend hands trying to safe guard Eb. You can also see how oblivious Eb is to my friend. 

I think one of the toughest things a parent does it finding the balance protecting their child and enabling their child to be independent.

I don't think this can be learned once. I notice that I face this particular struggle often. It begins as they are infants. You want to let them walk on their own, but you don't want them to fall. I remember following Abbie around and holding her up as she walked. When a friend told me that it is not only ok to let Abbie fall, but it is actually beneficial. She needed to learn how to take a tumble and how to hold her balance.

As they grow they learn new skills and demand more independence. It can be tricky deciding how much freedom to give them. I believe, no matter how much freedom you do decide to give your child, you need to be there for them if they fall. Children will always get boo boos, they will be physical, emotional, social, or spiritual. 

It is so encouraging to know that God, our Father, does the same thing for us. Although He gives us direction, He has given us free will. He allows us to be independent. When we end up falling, He is always there to pick us up. 

Romans 8:14 " For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God."

James 4:10 "Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up."

Romans 8:38-39 " For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."