Friday, April 27, 2012

Titus Two

God has been so good. I have felt led to begin a ministry called Titus Two. It is still in the beginning phases but I have been given a passion that I find growing. The group is for young Christian woman and showing them ways and techniques to being Godly women. I want to do this through many different avenues such as budgeting, sewing, the use of coupons, baking,caring for children, communicating, and getting a better understanding of the word. 

At first I was thinking the group would be for girls who are between the ages of 13 and 18 but it has turned out that God has already been moving it in a different direction. I have been led to reach out to two pregnant females. I love that God is using circumstances that I had gone through and is able to use it for His glory. 

 Titus 2:3-5 "Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. 4 Then they can urge the younger women to love their husbands and children, 5 to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God."

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Been a while...

It has been a while since I have written a blog and I know that not many people, if any, actually read it but I think I should put my thoughts here so they wont haunt me when I try to sleep. A lot has happened since I last posted. 

My dear hubby lost his job. I tried to pick up the slack financially by starting to work. I have been working for almost three months but the house has really fallen apart. I told him that he is an amazing daddy but a terrible mommy. Everything is so disorganized. I have been washing clothes in the middle of the night. The kitchen seems to never be clean for more than an hour at a time. Elizabeth has not had a meal in a high chair and we have only had a handful of meals at the table, all cooked by me. My office looks like a hurricane went through it. 

Abigaile's grades and behavior have been on the decline. So at home everything has been coming apart at the seams. Since Alvin has had several job interviews and if those don't turn out he may have a chance to just take over my position at work. I am so excited about my return home and can't wait until it is the big day. 

 The health of the family hasn't been too bad. Allergies are plaguing all of us but poor Abbie has taken the biggest hit. My fibromyalgia hasn't been all that terrible. I have been having a lot of pain in my teeth and jaw but don't have the funds or the insurance to pay for dental work. Elizabeth has gained weight and is getting so big and strong. She has teeth coming in and has been cruising around the furniture. 

 I have been having a tough time emotionally handling a personal tragedy. I lost one of my best friends very suddenly. My friend did not pass away or move but due to some poor choices I couldn't continue our friendship. It is so hard for me because I am not the type of person to suddenly stop talking to someone. Even when I feel hurt and betrayed I long for that friendship to be healed and reunited. It feels almost like I went through a bad breakup. Alvin had to lock my computer so that I would not become obsessive in reading my friends blogs and facebook posts. I really miss her but I know that it would be unfair to her for me to pretend to be able to continue a friendship with her. It would hurt someone else who is very close to me. I am trying to depend on God as my strength. God has taught me so so much over the last few months. I have learned about His grace, His love (AGAPE love), His forgiveness, and His ability to be my foundation. 

God is so good even when everything else is bad.